The person just for me...

I want a significant other who will understand and know what I mean when I say, "This (person in this manga/song/picture/etc.) reminds me of (person who we know/person in anime/person in manga/etc.)" It makes me sad that when I tell this to Annie, she doesn't know what I mean. I want someone in my life who will know what I mean, and maybe agree with me. I don't want to explain myself to my significant other. If I did that, maybe we're not so in love.

But whatever. It doesn't matter now, since I'm not even interested in having a relationship right now. It's just, today, I saw Sam and Etsie making out. And it's not even like they were somewhere private. They were in the middle of the second floor hall! But PDA's are not my forte. Ugh.

And I've been having dreams lately. I wish I could remember them. It would make writing some stories a lot easier. This week, I have to write a two perspectives story for short story class. It's due this Friday. I'm not even sure how to start it, and it doesn't even matter that I have to get 2-3 pages for both perspectives. I don't know what the situation will be, or how to start it, or even how to get into it. The book "Bird by Bird" the teacher, Judith, gave us says we should start by writing a little thing, and just writing and not editing yet.

It's just that it doesn't work that easily for me. I can't just sit down and write. Well, maybe I can. But the thing is, I am not confident in my writing. It feels a little too serious, or a little to immature, just a little to everything. I can't even get through a second draft. I almost always turn in my first draft, with minor changes in it.

Gahh. I shouldn't think about this so much. It makes no sense at all anymore.